I Trust Your Process

Though I may struggle with the notion of the possibility
that you could participate in an act of utter betrayal,
I decide to keep my heart open anyway.

I choose to believe in the idea that any such act of betrayal is simply
something you would never do.
Though sometimes, I can hear your thoughts and I wonder
how you go about questioning yourself.

This is your personal process
that I do not interrupt, it is a phase you are going through.
I ultimately trust in the idea that you are changing for yourself.
I trust in the idea that I truly do know you.

To Honor Love

Only from a distance, curiosity be admired
Out of reach, the forbidden fruit is desired
Seeking the love within truth as a flame
Bright in its freedom has yet to claim
To greet the path once chosen is beset
Finding comfort in the union of no regret

Steady, the breath gives life its torch each day
For the harshness of the wind can blow this wild fire away
The stand for devotion weds the commitment as true
But the wandering eye proves unfaithful, admittedly too soon
Ancient laws of love provide the everlasting warm glow

Where love is consistent and reliable,
Allowing the embers to burn slow
The youthfulness of love lights those flames
That burn against the wind, undyingly
The heart stays open, so eager to learn and to grow

I Loved

I have loved a boy
 when I was but a girl
I have loved a man twice my age
 when I was too young to know
I have loved a schemer
 when I was finding myself
I have loved my best friend
 when I needed to be one
I have loved a mechanic
 when I wanted to learn more
I have loved the nameless
 when I was unbalanced
I have loved and was married to a man for many years
 when I wanted to feel secure
I have loved a firefighter, an addict, the faceless, men of another skin,
I have loved the lost soul, an Indian cowboy, an army man
 All when I needed to, all an extension of myself
I have loved many, broken and whole
I loved them all with my heart and soul
But none of them have I loved so true
 or as deeply as I have loved you

New Year, New Perspective

 My dreams are the gifts that open the ideas
Within my intention where the reality becomes tangible
I do not idealize my dreams as fairy tales
Even through their whimsical fancies
 Having a life purpose is unique to my own destiny
I choose to use creativity and bring to life my dreams
Giving those gifts as a return to anyone that cares to see
Even through the expression of a darker side of me

  Each New Year brings a fresh and matured perspective in knowledge, wisdom and growth. Through it all, the light, the dark, and everything in between, I hold true to my dreams and the care of my soul.

To Daniel - Happy Birthday

The passion of my love for you
originated from the core of motherhood
deeply flowing through my heart

Within my soul, it is known to me
even at the very start
Our connection is meant to be

If I could tell you in words how special you are
I would need the collective descriptions
from the eternal library

Earth Rebirth

To the Earth one day I asked,
"How are you this day?"
The Earth replied to me,
Though several years later,
"Any one day in particular, I dare not say
for fear my answer catches the wind,
blowing far through the ages,
swept up and left astray."

With reassurance to the Earth I replied,
"Patiently I waited and listened for your answer to return to me,
carefully I listened to the rocks, to the air and to the sea."
"I am listening again, so tell me please,
how are you now, on this day?"

Once again, I waited and listened patiently for the Earth to respond
Several more years passed on,
to my dismay, I heard not another utterance from the Earth
Come my way

Until the time of my death, I prayed for the Earth's response
Interestingly, it was on that very day
Faintly I heard the Earth's words, but I could not wait
So I asked again, "How are you Earth, this day?"
"Why hadn't your reply found its way to me sooner?"

So clearly, as if I'd answered myself, within my ears
the booming of the Earth resounded,
"I answered you a time or two for many years,
I replied again not so long ago,
you must not have been silent enough to hear me though."

"For my answer was given to you once, it was the only reply needed,
I thought you of all would know that each day spent
Learning with practice, staying in peace and becoming patient
Is a great day, for everything in blossom on Earth
Will always renew the cycle of growth."

With that, my passing was peaceful
As I returned to the Earth
I never asked how she was again
For I did not need to,
as I found her voice had always been within.

Trust

   To fully love,
means to fully trust
Though love is sometimes blind
   Trust is the guide
to love's insight

   To fully trust,
means to fully trust
Because love is sometimes blind
   Truth is the guide trust uses
Even when love is left behind